Cognitive Behavioral Therapy

In spite of overwhelming negativity, in the world, on the news, with my life, I have decided to take my negative thoughts and turn them around into positive ones. I think I can do this now that I am medicated and have a job pending.

Starting a new job brings with it a lot of anxiety, especially when you haven't worked in nine months, have three needy teenagers, needy husband, needy sick in laws etc. So every time I get a thought about "how am I ever going to get this done when I start work?" I'm going to write it down and figure out ahead of time how I will cope with the situation. I will also need a little mazel in my life, g-d willing the in-laws will heal and no one else will get sick. It seems that I am the one accompanying all the other family members to a million doctor, dentist, orthodontist and now a new one, podiatry, appointments. Ah...I forgot the dog....he needs an echocardiogram to check out his heart murmur.

My husband, who is a teacher, actually has an easier commute and a shorter schedule than I do . He's just going to have to take back some of the errands that he delegated to me. I'm not sure how he will cope with it, since he's taking a graduate course too....

Life is just overwhelming. My parents had such a simpler easier life. My mom was home, and things were calm and reliable. We could live on one income, even though my dad was a modest earner. My sister and I had most of everything we needed, and we were educated through college without student loans. I think a lot of families must be cracking under this pressure cooker of a life we live. And don't get me started about Yeshiva tuition...that's for another day.

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts......pleasant dreams....

Found a Job, Finally

I finally found the right job, I hope. It will be either three or four days a week, working for a VA hospital, teaching residents. When you work for the government there are all sorts of rules so probably I will chose not to blog about it.
I'd like to start blogging again on a regular basis, and I will have to think about what direction to take it. Well with two in-laws in the hospital, funerals and shivas in the community (don't ask) I've been very busy. At least we have a simcha, a bat mitzvah to go to this weekend.
The first thing I think I will change is the negative description of this blog.
Lets get it out of crisis mode, and into something more positive and interesting.
It will take four to six weeks until I start work because of all the paper work involved. I hope that gets me throught the holidays and my nephew's bar mitzvah. (another simcha, yea)

My friend's daughter in Israel is getting married this week. Other friends have first grandchildren on the way...a new generation coming. So I need to focus on the positive side of life.